Growing up, I often felt lost and confused, unsure about the way to live my life. There were many things I loved about my parents, but I wanted something different. I grew up with so many varied role models, none of them consistent, that I just drifted, looking for a road to follow.
As I did, I sunk deeper into my struggle with pornography addiction. I was constantly hiding and lying about who I was and what I was doing. I walked dangerous roads, causing pain to the ones closest to me, and at the same time, trying to find my way. The road back up. The road out. I knew where I wanted to go, and could not find the road to get me there.
Over the past three years, I have been on the journey back up, back out, and back to who I am. I have had too many transformational moments to count, and I have developed a deeper connection with my wife, my Savior, and most important, myself. And still, ,I have been looking for the right road to get me back to where I want to be.
In August, as part of our Limitless Inner Circle Warrior Retreat, I rediscovered just who I am. I chose to accept the identity that I have been running from all my life. I chose into being a Warrior, who stands ready and acts on whatever God asks me to do. Since then, I have been doing my best to follow the road God wants me to follow.
This past week, I took the kids to see Moana, a brand new Disney movie, set in the Pacific islands. Since then, we have been listening to the soundtrack continually, and the messages of some of them are so in alignment with what I believe and feel.
And then today, after my morning power hour, dropping the kids off at school, and jamming out in the car, I was holding our daughter, standing with Marianne in the office and singing my version of the lyrics to my favorite Moana song. As the song reached its final lines, I started to sob, joyful as tears streamed down my face, because I realized what I had been missing.
I will carry you here in my heart
You remind me
That come what may
I know the way.
That was it. I had my answer.
I know The Way.
I know the Truth, and the Life.
I was never asked to follow a road to get back to being with my Savior. I was asked to follow Him. No more looking down at my feet, searching for a road to get me where I want to go. Now I get to look up, listen for His voice and watch where he beckons, and I will never be lost again.
The Way is not the road!!
No matter what I am going through, no matter what comes into my life, as long as I remember where I want to be, I don't need to know the road to get there.
I know The Way.
This past week, I took the kids to see Moana, a brand new Disney movie, set in the Pacific islands. Since then, we have been listening to the soundtrack continually, and the messages of some of them are so in alignment with what I believe and feel.
And then today, after my morning power hour, dropping the kids off at school, and jamming out in the car, I was holding our daughter, standing with Marianne in the office and singing my version of the lyrics to my favorite Moana song. As the song reached its final lines, I started to sob, joyful as tears streamed down my face, because I realized what I had been missing.
I will carry you here in my heart
You remind me
That come what may
I know the way.
That was it. I had my answer.
I know The Way.
I know the Truth, and the Life.
I was never asked to follow a road to get back to being with my Savior. I was asked to follow Him. No more looking down at my feet, searching for a road to get me where I want to go. Now I get to look up, listen for His voice and watch where he beckons, and I will never be lost again.
The Way is not the road!!
No matter what I am going through, no matter what comes into my life, as long as I remember where I want to be, I don't need to know the road to get there.
I know The Way.
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